urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:pell_mell16 So I'll Scribble It Down Here and Hope. black_dragon555@hotmail.com Shelly 2038-01-19T03:14:07Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:pell_mell16:26843 2038-01-19T03:14:07Z 2038-01-19T03:14:07Z my cuckoo clock and computer <p>oh man!&nbsp;&nbsp;I have boy trouble!&nbsp; although I acknowledge that it *is* mostly in my head. ^_^;<br />&nbsp;first I thought I liked one guy but then I went out with him for a night and discovered that, ya know, mebbe not so much, so after a kiss (which is when I realized the not so much part).&nbsp; He was pretty upset. And now,not a week later,&nbsp; I have a boyfriend. of course I didn't expect to realize that I liked him&nbsp;for real (instead of the "sorta" that i originally thought). now I have to figure out how to not look like a complete bitch to the first guy, cuz I do value his friendship. so now my brain overloads! urgh.&nbsp;also i don't know if my new guy knows I am bi. and I don't want to not have him know cuz that would be awkward.<br /><br />On&nbsp;a happier note: I may be going to new york for the first time EV4R in mid-August!!!!! &gt;o&lt;&nbsp;<br />&nbsp;also, I have finally gotten more of a concrete idea to work with so I can write these three characters that have been bouncing around my head demanding to be freed. this freedom may or may not be a good thing. heh....<br />and to top it off, Kasper and I found an uncorrected proof from one of our favourite Authors and she bought it. but I am gonna read it first. hah!</p>